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4/5/2015

It is 3 am. I am. Still here...

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I have't heard from you - are you ok? You have not updated your blog - hello? Are you still here?

Yes. Yes I am. And no not at all. I know I am behind - six months roughly in regaling my tales ... And yes I am ok and no I am not okay.

Everything is different everyday. And yet everyday feels the same as the last...

I want to write. I need to write. I want to share. I need to share. I ....

But like that package of chicken you buy - that starts off in the fridge - then moves to the freezer - that ends up under a pizza - stuck to a bag of fruit you swear you will make smoothies with - I am white with flakes of ice - swollen with my own rottenness and too frosty to touch.

So it sits. And so I sit.

Waiting - like so many of us - like this winter of so much discontent - I wait to thaw.

And I will.

In fact as I find the courage to be honest - -authentic that I am tired - and scared - and lonely - and numb - to the point of have little feeling in my finger tips..

I am noticing that I am here. And here is exactly where I need to be - With each and everyone - of you. Because I love you.

Take a deep breath Kelly - it's ok not to be ok.

Exhale. Peel yourself off the bag of peas. It will be all write.

Now where was I .....

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Michele
4/12/2015 10:43:20 pm

Kelly, I have followed your blog. All I can say is you are a true inspiration. I have told Liza how it amazes me to read your stories. Even though I know theres lots of heart break you still twnd to make me giggle. I wish you all the best during your recovery and roads ahead. I am sure one day you will be a leaning and learning post to other women who unfortunately have to tackle the same battle. Hugs to you both xoxo

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Meri MacLeod
4/24/2015 04:31:49 am

Hey awesome amazing remarkable dear Kelly :-)!
No way that insidious "big C" can get you down - no way will you allow it to control your life... whatsoever! That cursed "big C" had no idea who it would be dealing with. You are not one to give up in anyway whatsoever! Your journey is no picnic - the constant bombardment must be wearing - and yet, you find the strength & the courage to share your toughest life journey with others... such telling is both moving and surely a major boost to healing and to good health. You are in my thoughts & heart. Huge hugs (gently)...wishing you a fast recovery... Meri xoxox

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